29/04/2009

Aiman , Ibu went for check up yesterday and the news we got is not that positive ...

Sayang please pray for ibu safety ...

Ibu miss u soo much darling ...

Ibu's working place has been treating ibu so mean ...

Ibu so down nowadays ...How Ibu wish you're here with Ibu to Cheer Ibu up sayang ...

Luv U my lil Angel ...

22/04/2009

Assalamualaikum Aiman anak Ibu ...

Tomorrow Ibu Birthday sayang Ibu used to imagined celebrating Ibu birthday this year with you in my arms but With his willed it never happen ...

allah knows wats best and wats is stored for our future ...

Whatever happen there's a reason sayang ...

Allah love you so much that he's not willing to be apart from you that long and its not easy to be the choosen one ...

Ibu know you be waiting for Ibu there and there where we can happily ever after insyallah with all Ibu's good deeds in this world ...Amin

Aiman pray for Ibu k ...Ibu really miss aiman So much and Yup Ibu bring your blue Shirt wherever Ibu go ... Just to have a Smell of you :)

Luv U Aiman Muacksssss...

17/04/2009...

Ibu miss sayang too much yesterday ibu cry but ayah scolded ibu ...

sayang Allah really testing ibu patience ...

Sayang pray for Ibu health ok ibu know you will...

Sayang come to Ibu dream ...Ibu want to play with you even its just a dream Ibu still appreciate it alotsssss...

Ur presence in Ibu life is really meaningful ...

Sayang Ibu put ur pic on Ibu New Lg Hp u soooo Hensem lah ...

Like Ibu always say You are just toooooooooo beautiful for this earth ...

Love Ibu ...

13/04/2009

today nenek will go and visit you ...

Ibu bought for you new windmill and F1 Cars ...

Hope you like it sayang ...

you be good ok my Soldier ...I know you're sooo brave even as a baby ...

Someone like you is like 1 in a million ...

Ibu will come again soon Miss you Sayang ...

Pray for Ibu ...

Sayang pray for Ibu ok ...

Protect Ibu k sayang ...i know you're my lil hero which i can depend on ...

Ibu miss Aiman lah ...

2mths Gone...

Sayang its been 2 months since you departed from this earth ...

nothing much change except we've moved to another house ...

From SImei to Punggol , this new house is meant for you sayang it so empty without you...

We've left that house in Simei filled with 1001 memories ...

Sayang Ibu missed you a lot and you still the first ...

Luv you Aiman ...

We spent the whole night together for the last time ...

You were on Ibu & Ayah bed Never expect this way but Allah know what's best for us sayang ...

Everybody came to pay their last visit for you ...

You were just too special in their eyes...Like Ibu always said You were just too beautiful for this earth ...

We sent you to your final resting place on the morning of 08/02/2009...You had your last bath and slowly everybody bid their last goodbye to you Sayang ...

BLK 429 ,LiM Chu Kang Muslim Cemetary ,No.372B is the final destination for you ...

But You will Always be in Ibu Heart ...LOve U AIMAN...

seventh february two thousand nine

Allah love you more sayang ...

You left us peacefully around 2.45pm ...

Ibu felt So empty ...Ibu have to stay calm whatever happened

Whatever happened ...there's a Reason ...

What's in store for Our Future only Allah know ...

Like Ibu always said maybe you're just too beautiful for this earth...

IBU WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU ...YOU'RE IN MY HEART FOREVER...

The Eve ...

On Friday 06/02/2009

Ibu & Ayah Stayed in the Hospital ...As per normal Just to feel the closeness ...

Mom ,Tante Intan is also there with us ...Nenek,Nyai,Atok went back ...

We came to visit you around 11pm to bid goodnight and chaged your MP3 battery ...

Just to make sure sayang got the warmth ...

Never Imagine That will be your last night in that CURSED place that is KK HOSPITAL Room 34 BEd 14...

Never Give UP

Daily Ibu will express the milk and tubefeed you ...I knew you liked it ...

Ibu,Nenek,Ayah,Nyai all of us will be with you from day till night there's even one time where we stayed at the family room for almost 2weeks just to be closed to you sayang ...

Not even a day i missed my visiting moments for you ...

Ibu & Ayah even bought MP3 for you ...Remember???

All the fav songs ...are just for you ...

Ibu hope Allah guide Us what is his will and what is the future holding for us ...Amin ...

A week Later ...

You're in Coma State ...

Clinically they assumed as Brain Dead...My dreams are shattered Everything Broke into miliions pieces ...

Despite that All of us still there for you daily ...Ibu still hope miracle will step in ...

Ibu Read for you cookie monster story ...u remember sayang ...

Bought you Einstein book u love it don't you ....

buy you toys...Got ur New booties & Bedtime cap ...

You're the most beautiful baby born...just too beautiful for this earth ...

LUV U AIMAN...

The Nightmare...

The nightmare begin for us the whole family ....Sayang they found out there's blood clot in your main vessel ...thats the reason why you can't breathe properly and blood can't flow to the lower part of your body ...


The blood clot is growing near your kindney area ...No surgeon dare to step in for surgery since its too major hence you're given blood thining agent ...but before that you're sent for CT scan to ensure your brain is fine and they assured everything is okay,medication started but the side effect is the one we worried about easily bleeding ...YES sayang Ibu SO scared keep Asking the doctors "IS THIS LIFE THREATENING???"they say hard to say ...I Felt so anxious everyday i came to your room daily without failed but eventually the worst part that I'm really so scared to take place did happened...

The 4th day after medication given You had fits ...Sayang wats happening ???Ibu soooo Scared ...Your Blood pressure keep going on the high side...there's so many lines on your body ...
I feel like slapping all the STAFFS in KKH ...JUST HATE THEM !!!!

after another round of scan ...Found Out your brain start to bleed!!!!!

The Worst step in ...

IBU MISSSS AIMAN TOOOO MUCH

You Never WOke up since than A week later

5 days @ SCN

This is the best part ibu played with you ...Feed you ...Change dur diapers ...hear you cry ...Saw your smiles...

At that point your only problem is Feeding ...And you're still on tube feeding ...Doctor mentioned not to worry this is quite common eventually they will learn ...

But after the 3rd day in SCN the nurse said your Heart rate is on the high side and the worries came in ...

Ibu still remember it was on sunday 21/12/2008

As per normal Ibu & Ayah accompany you throughout the Day Ibu just don't feel right Ibu came to comfort you around 3pm and put you to sleep ...

By 5pm Ibu came and heard you crying so loudly and found out they took blood test from you after so much of crying half of you turned white and from that moment Ibu know you're so sick sayang ...

Than You're again Being Pushed to NICU...

IBU HEARTS Shattered sayang Never felt so scared like that sayang ...

IBU HEART AIMAN...

SCN

A day later Ayah visited you but Ibu was at home having a good rest ...

You was tranfered to SCN alhamdulilah ...

Ibu is just so over the moon start to annouce officially over FB & Multiply ...

But That is just the Beginning ...

Aiman my lil Hero our relatives & frens been wanting to see you but i keep saying "HOLD ON SOON K"

IBU MISS AIMAN...

BP up and DOwn again

Maybe Ibu was just too worry about you when you're in NICU for the first fewdays and when ayah is not around Ibu ...Ibu felt so scared

Ibu Blood pressure is still on the high side but inisist on going back sorry sayang if only Ibu can sleep and stay with you at NICU sure Ibu will...

Ibu was discharged after 5days in hospital but you're still in NICU at that point ...

At that point IBU is just so restless and Ibu just got the feeling sumting is coming whether its good or bad ...

IBU LOVE AIMAN...

13/12/2008

It was 6pm visiting hours when ibu first saw you ...Ibu can't believe you're the one sayang u're toooo beautiful to be on this earth .I touched you and sing you the song that i always sang for you when you're in Ibu tummy...you so cute the moment i sang it you cried out loud ....

i still have the videos till now for the memory sake ...

the next moment that came thru my mind i just want to breasfeed you and hold u tight...

12/12/2008- 1559

I don't even know your gender darling till you was born ...my lil hero is full of suprises whether its good or bad ...

You're such a big boy sayang 3.915kg & 53cm long ...

Ibu so proud of you ...They put you to NICU due to your sugar level low ...I'm so worried how i wish i can hug you and let you feel my warmth like you always used to when you're in my tummy sayang ...

but Ayah say you be fine no worries and dat relief my worries and ibu had a good sleep till the next day ...

Labour Ward

I was 37weeks pregnant when admitted on the 10th Dec due to my blood Pressure on the high side ...Shephali admitted me and due to be induced at night time.

I'm a overweight diabetic mum with controlled sugar level throughout my pregnancy for 9mths . This is my first pregnancy and my diabetic is only detected when i was 3mths pregnant . Hypertension came along when i was 8mths pregnant . Monthly i will have 2 doctors that monitor my condition Shehphali ( KKH ) my gynae and Jackie ( TTSH ) diabetic .

So far throughout my pregnany journey everything was smooth despite the diabetic never expect the biggest test in my life is coming to my way soon ...

Gynae insisted me going for normal delivery and i really regret it till now ...I waited for 38hrs in the labour ward before i was pushed for emergancy c-section due to the fever i had .

To many people suprised i really can endure the long hours but what i think about is just my baby nothing else ...

HIZQIL NUR AIMAN my HERO...